I’m putting out to tumblr basically about the wrong choices I’ve made for the past year now. If you’ve known me for a couple of years, I’ve became who I said I’ve never become. I used to look down on people who’d smoke and drink and all that other shit. Today, I am one of those people. High school is what changes you. People you hang around with isn’t the poor choices you make yourself. Because in the end, it’s you doing it. I’ve lost many close friends because of the actions I chose and how it effected them. It didn’t hit me until today when I had a talk with this one person I love the most; my mom. She’s supported me through everything and anything. To think what kind of daughter I’ve been to her the past year hurts not only her but me also… The one thing you never want to see is your parent crying. My immune system wasn’t very good to begin with. Im probably the person you’ll meet that gets sick a lot. And the past days, I’ve felt like I was in my death bed. Literally. I know that my body needs a break. No one really knows how hard it is to quit and everyone needs motivation. Today I got that. I have motivation. I just want to know that ill be okay also. All I need now is God. I haven’t gone out to church for a good year now. The poor choices I made myself are all coming to a stop. Starting now, I’m making a promise to no one but myself that I’ll be strong again & make good choices. It’ll be hard but I’m going to give my all & I know it’ll all be worth it at the end :)